Brian Husdon Hull....1975-2013
A Journey into the Shadows
My brother died September 8, 2013. Tragically, he took his own life. I guess sometimes even the brightest lights can be overwhelmed by the darkness in this world. However, the darkness did not win. It did not defeat him, as I know he is still the brightest star in a sea of black. He will always be that for me. He is, and will always be... with me.
As I sit here writing this, I try to hold the tears back and remember what I know he wanted/wants from me.... TO BE BRAVE. However, in my life, and throughout our life together, he was the brave one. He charged down the ski slopes, rushed to defend others without a second thought for himself, and was just the kindest, strongest, most beautiful soul I have ever known.
Yes, he was the brave one.
He was my hero.
For the past 6 years, I have struggled. I have tried to find my voice through words on paper, but I have only written draft after draft of a first chapter in my young adult book titled Shadows. And, while I have had the story play out in my head a million times, while I can see the faces of my characters, and feel them in my heart as friends on another plane, I just have not been able to find the right words to bring them and their world to life. My brother was one of the few to have read what I have started and one of the very few who has been on this journey with me. He was my biggest supporter, always lifting me up, trying to make me believe in myself and the validity of my work.
Before he died, he made me promise him I would finish it. So, as I sit here sharing this with you, and leaving myself open to all the world, I begin that promise.
My hope is that you as my reader will share this journey with me, and that we may inspire each other along the way, share a laugh or two, and maybe when all is said and done complete a promise I made to my first and forever best friend,
my brother.
my brother.
I know you're going to finish that book - and what an amazing tribute it will be to Brian! I can't wait to read it:)
ReplyDeleteThanks Rachel, and thanks for being the first ever to read it. You have helped me more than you know. If, "the few" were to be defined that would be you and my brother, so that makes you pretty darn special.
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