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The Truth

I am not sure who or how many people read what I write, or if they will ever read anything I write.  The important thing, I am starting to realize, is that I write.
The truth is while there are certainly people out there that had a harder life than me growing up, I did not necessarily have it easy either.
In my darkest times, I turned to my journal, and through writing my feelings out, I was able to find insight not only into myself but into others.  Some of these revelations would have otherwise stayed locked in my subconscious mind had I not choose to write.
Journal writing is nice because you can hide.  You can hide the darkest parts of who you are, discover the inner voice the defines you, and release pain that otherwise left pent up would destroy you.  It is a wonder to me that more people do not write.  If you have a problem verbally expressing yourself and your feelings, I would encourage you to get a book, journal, whatever you want to call it and start to write.  Do not critique yourself, just write, and in so doing you will start to find your voice.  This inner voice will start to gain a place in your head, and before you know it, you will find you can use it to better communicate with those around you.

So, what is the point of all this?  What does it have to do with "The Truth."

The truth is, we all have a voice even if we never use it.  It is that little voice that we use to talk to ourselves or work out problems in our head.  It is the voice that defines our thoughts about ourselves and others.  What we fail to realize is that inner voice is who we really are, not the voice that we speak to the world with.  If we are honest, we all know that voice is filtered, censored, and even sometimes altered.  However, our inner voice is who we really are, that is the voice of our soul.  The truth is all too many of us ignore it, suppress it, or just plain don't care to listen to it, but we should, because by destroying that voice, by downgrading its importance, we are cutting ourselves off from who we really are and even who we may become.

I know.. I too have done it... I too have justified it... but I will tell you a secret I have had to learn the hard way.... you lose yourself... you become buried in pain... you cannot bury who you are without suffocating.  The truth is, just don't do it.  Do not be afraid of who you are.  Take the pain, face the demons within, yell, scream, cry... but find your voice because in a world that wants you to be silent, it is the only thing that might save you in the end.